Stalking and the Tyranny of One Sided Learning – Part 1

One of the byproducts of surviving a stalker are the unique insights that come about as you piece your life back together. Some of the more salient insights pertain to the shortcomings(for lack of a better term) of learning, blind spots in our consciousness, and how much trust we really have for each other (whether we intend to or not) and the general state of humanity.

Learning is Only as One sided as a Person is Conscious

To explain this a bit further…

For example, I have learned how to do some pretty bad stuff all in the name of self defense and to educate people and the professionals who have been assisting with this case. These are not things I want to do, or am inclined to do, they are things I have had to do to be able to work with people to bring information in a digestible way. Do you see the point? There is more than 1 point here;

1. For something to be believable, we have to see and experience the information on our terms.
2. I have learned many bad things out of this struggle.

So, you have one person learning bad things to defend themselves against at least one if not two people doing bad if not worse things (for reasons still unknown). I was told a saying as a kid “Two wrongs do not make a right” for when I wanted to retaliate if I was or felt wronged. As a grown up, I see this from a very different perspective because I have HAD to learn bad things to defend myself from yet worse things. All this and I still do not know the assailants perspective or reasoning for all of this, and may never know.

The point is all the learning here is very focused on bad, destructive behaviors. Whether it is intended to harm aggressively or to harm defensively it is still intended on harm.

The second point is learning happens whether you want it to or not, whether you consciously try to stunt someone’s process or not. Learning still happens. People however, may not learn what you want them to despite your efforts to stop them.

Judgement is Still Judgement Regardless of the Context

If I think honestly, really honestly about the circumstances where I need to judge swiftly and severely the number of those circumstances are very limited. I mean seriously limited to a few times in my life and ambulances were involved. Nearly everything other circumstance that did not involve life and death could stand flexibility and a more open mind when it came to how I mentally perceived those circumstances.

Leave a Space for What you Don’t Yet know

This is tougher than it looks.

There are many schools of thought around learning and how people learn. What I am attending to show is the more unconscious environmental aspect of learning that happens just by living. Sometimes actually showing this through a really hard difficult circumstance yields some very salient insights yet providing an accurate context can be equally difficult. While this may feel like a long and winding road, it should be an interesting road to travel.

One of the hardest aspects of surviving a stalker is not losing your humanity in the process. Another very difficult aspect of surviving a stalker is the intense mental and emotional discipline needed to survive. This last point has been voluntary on my part and had made some things easier but is very hard on relationships.

A stalker looks to west you out and then catch you off guard to wound you further and watch you suffer in bewilderment or worse. So, the more aware and disciplined you are, at the least you wool make your stalker work for it.

Judgement Seldom Reveals the Whole Picture of a Circumstance or Person’s Life

Stalkers may not be lazy as a whole but, to obsess and watch while you think you are not being watched and then obsess some more… All While judging and closing off any possibility that you (as the stalker who is judging) might be wrong about the conclusion you have come to regarding the person you are obsessing over.

With this possibility, the entire premise for even stalking someone could be wrong. I would think that if I wanted to stop somebody I’d want to get it right, and be justified in my actions. Having an all-encompassing fantasy is not enough it isn’t accurate if not correct.

But hey for some people I guess it just doesn’t matter that much.

If I follow the logic of my own thinking that I’m explaining through here at some point the obsession of your stalking become so important and there’s no right or wrong because you are so immersed in that obsession.

That’s the only logical train of thought I can follow that begins to make any sense to an outsider as to why someone would continue to stalk her ass vandalize committed break in after break in.

Of course you can see where this is going things in this world don’t last forever anyway falsehoods last even less because it’s some point in time the more you insist on your falsehood more the world in some way shape or form demonstrates that it’s not true.

All the tyrannical rulers throughout history prove this in some way shape or form. The rule never lasts even their entire lifetime and almost always ends in war and five times the destruction. All of this because they had an idea in their head and it had to be manifested physically and imposed on the world around them. This serves to validate the ‘rightness’ of their ideas so through the process of manifesting their vision literally in the world. Ok, maybe that is too much of a sweeping generalization but, just sayin…

Some of us live in a microcosm of this macrocosm.